cookieChoices = {}; * C.J Diary *: November 2014

Saturday 8 November 2014

I got a present!!


 hey jia..
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 yeah..

 i got a present?

hurmm... from who?
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nawal... my friend since high school..

chuwahe.. thanks nawal.. its took almost a year until we meet together.. maybe around 5 minutes, but who care right.. thanks again.. don't forget my birthday next month ya.. 13 Dec.. or it will take a year again to reach?? hahaha.. 

**as you can see, my skin still not okay since last week because of the tournament.. 5 hour direct to sun and I got sunburn.. yeahh (T_T) 

Friday 7 November 2014

Salam Jumaat

assalamualaikum..
alhamdulillah, masih dapat pergi kerja walaupun demam masih ada sisa-sisa lagi..
oh sekarang dekat sini 11.15 pagi.. dekat berlin pukul 4.11 pagi..
oh mood mengeluarkan air liur ye gamaknya orang di sana..

ouch busuk.. :)
suasana dalam opis sekarang semua panas :)
siapa yang suka diaudit kan? hehe
nasib baik dah lepas dulu..

rindu..
its kinda hard when you miss someone, but you can't do anything..
please work hard ya abang..
i will always pray for u and us

Thursday 6 November 2014

SG Wannabe - I Loved You To Death

lately, for past a month I think. my selection for kpop song are like.. ermm slow and sad.. I think.. either because my emotional not so stabil or break up kind a feel like.. ouch.. SG Wannabe.. one of group that have a powerful vocal and harmonic I guess.. the first one that caught in my mind when I see Kim Junho, one of vocalist sing Saldaga in I am a Singer show.. its make me cry a lot... (T_T) I started to google more about SG Wannabe and one of my favourite song is "I Loved You To Death" and luckily I found the lyric. thank's google!!

Roman Lyric : SG Wannabe - I Loved You To Death

Geureohgedo miwossnayo modeungeol beorilmankeum geuraessnayo 
Eotteokhaeya hanayo swipge jiulsuga eopsneunde 

Geudael geutorok himdeulge haessdeon naeseupgwandeul 
Charari naega geudae gieokkkaji gajgo sandamyeon 

Geureol su issdamyeon na yongseodoeltende 
Geudaen ijgo salsu issnayo jeongmal geurae julsu issnayo 

Naege badeun sangcheol jeonbu beorilsu issnayo 
Jogeumirado geudaepyeonhi tteonasilsu issdamyeon 

Museunirirado nan haeyaman haltende 
Tteonanayo idaero jeongmal bonaeya hanayo 

Ibyeoreun janinhage geudael ijeurahaneunde 
Bujokhaessdeon nae sarangi jakku mame geollyeoseo 

Ireohge nadeo himdeureo jineyo mianhaeyo 
Cham naega eoriseogeossjyo himdeureo hadeon geudael bomyeo 

Hanmadi dajeonghan wirodo moshaejwossneyo 
Geuraessdeon naega jigeum neomukeun yoksim burinayo 

Ulmyeo maedallimyeon mosigincheok dora orago 
Kkumingayo ireohge jeongmal tteonasilgeongayo 

Huhoeneun babocheoreom geudael jabeura haneunde 
Bujokhaessdeon naesarangi jakku mame geollyeoseo 

Ireohge na deo himdeureo jineyo 
Jugeulmankeum geumankeum geudael saranghaesseoyo ijewaseoyeoya 

English translation:

Did you hate me that much ? 
That you could just throw everything away ? 

What should I do ? I cant erase it easily. 
My habits made gave you such a hard time
If only I can take your memories with me along with mine
If I could do that, then you'd be able to forgive me

Can you live as you forget me ? Can you really do that for me ?
Can you throw away all the scars you got from me ? 
If you can leave a little bit more comfortably,
I would do everything and anything

Are you leaving ? Do I really have to let you go ? 
Separation is cruelly telling me to forget you but
My insufficient love keeps catching my heart
Its becoming hard for me too... Im sorry... 

I was so naive as I saw your struggling image
I couldnt even say one affectionate word to you
Am I being too selfish ? 
If I cry and cling onto you, will you come back ? 

Is this a dream ? Are you really going to leave like this ? 
Regret, is stupidly telling me to catch you but
My insufficient love keeps catching my heart
Its becoming hard for me too... 

Just like now, just like before, I loved you
I just realize that now... Just now...

Geugeol kkaedarayo ijeseoya

mana? mana?

mana apa? siapa? bagaimana? mengapa? :) tak lah.. its about me actually.. hati nak tulis tapi jari malas.. berat lemak dekat hujung jari rasanya.. huhuhu

sakit.. akhir-akhir ni agak kerap sakit.. lepas main untuk sukan 4 penjuru tu terus jatuh sakit.. mungkin sebab lama sangat berjemur (masih tak hilang lagi kehitaman muka ku ini).. nampaknya tak boleh terus nak aktif sukan padang ni.. tak kan la nak futsal aja.. nanti duk meneman orang ke futsal jek.. dia main, kita tengok sambil sorak-sorak pompom girl.. (eh apakah?? haha)

tapi kadang-kadang fikir.. salah satu yang menambah kesakitan pun sebab suasana dekat pejabat. kalau setakat air-cond buka kuat-kuat, dah biasa dah.. tapi entah lah.. sama ada diri sendiri mudah terasa.. atau memang dekat sini mulut dah makin tak cover insurans.. baru nak turun dari lif dah ada orang kata "tepi sikit, bagi kenderaan berat keluar dulu".. tak pun "dah sihat ke? sihat luar dalam ke? karang sakit balik" dengan nada-nada yang sinis..

tak apalah.. berfikir baik aja lah.. serah semula pada Allah.. ya saya memang sangat gemuk sekarang. pernah dengat kesan ubat? I try so hard to be ok again. tolong, jangan kerna mulut anda-anda yang tak menjaga perasaan orang lain tu, buatkan semangat yang lain jadi jatuh. atau nak tunggu sakit-sakit ni datang semua pada orang-orang ini baru nak memahami? jangan minta. pernah dengar doa orang sakit tu makbul..rasa macam nak....


sabarlah hati. kalau ikut hati, nak aja berhenti. tapi iyalah, hutang-hutang nanti siapa pula nak bayar kan. jadi bersabar ajalah ye hati.. kalau tak sabar jadi lain, susah pulak jadinya..


**"you love me?""more than you know" its the best medicine for a whole week. mood gedik menjelma!!**